T o k y o J u l i e t

~~Tuesday, January 31, 2006~~

4:35 PM

HAPPIE CNY TO EVERYONE!!!!!!!! XD

This year's cny seems to have more "excitement" than previous years... the ang pao money got a lot more, that's one thing.. =X Big huggles and well wishes to everyone who wished me =)

WHEEEEEEE!! pai seh for being so high... cuz the fued, or cold war, between me and Ray....

IS FINALLY OVER!!!! ^_^

Hmm.. back to cny... first day was as usual in the morning.. went to grandma's house... i missed her noodles... cuz I only get to eat it once a year during cny.. >_<>

Day 2:
Spent some time with ALL my cousins... WITHOUT any adults! hehe... played blackjack... my brother was the "zhuang". Wah.. he this year luck so good sia... usually zhuang is the one who always lose money de, but he won about $15+, and his "ben qian" is only $2.50.. -.- I lost $1.40.. ;_; But anyway, it was fun lah... then i finished reading book 3 of the bridesmaid chronicles. After that, went online... and forgetful me forgot to "block" ray.. *cough* Anyway, i thought nvm.. since his stats are "offline". And before I knew it, "pop" his name came out... with a BIG "GONG XI FAI CAI" in chinese... i got shocked... cuz the last thing u expect from someone who have ignored you for 2 weeks is GONG XI FA CAI... -.- psh! But.. he said.. isnt it lunar new year now? And I was like.. i didnt know you celebrate this is Canada... and he went (in chinese words, not just the han yu pin yin) dang ran you! =.= okkaayy... fine, u win. And I was about to "be offline" again... and he seems to read my mind.. and he went... if you do that again, i'll announce what I want to say to you all over puzzle pirates... fine! ni ying le lor! Anyway, not gonna say anything here... the conversation is p-r-i-v-a-t-e.. =p But it's cny, so let bygones, be bygones... *tackles and hugs Ray* Silly guy, I was never gonna ignore you forever =) Anyway, Jun Jie came over (as my brothers friend, not as my boyfriend) and it was a miracle my mom din suspect anything... cuz half the time he was talking to ME, not my brother... >_<>

Third Day:
Not much.. mom and dad's friends came over. Then I got bored, and went on msn. Big mistake.. all my cousins were on... and i got dragged to watch movie.. -.- somemore is CHEAPER BY THE DOZEN 2! dots... okay lah.. it wasnt as bad as i thought.. quite funny =)

Overall, this new year has been a blast! Kudos to everyone who made it so much fun! Oh, and thanks to my couz, for buying the Guo Mei Mei CD for me.. =) But warn u... next time if u TRICK me into going for manicure again.. watch out ar... XD *evil laugh*

Letting go is nver easy, cherish the past, live the present, and await the future...
- Amber-

~~Friday, January 27, 2006~~

6:53 PM

IT"S FINALLY OVER!!!!!! WHEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!

week 12 is FINALLY OVER! AT LAST!!! Hmm... after sch, went to find my cousin in Orchard... cuz my mom made me cut my hair.. ;_; *sniffs* now so ugly liao... =.= Anyway, cut le, my couz bring me to "relax". Her form of relaxation? Manicure + Pedicure.. >_<>

So I got dragged off to a manicure room, and she went to do both in another room.. -.- Think after this, I refuse to do manicure in that shop anymore... wah... they poke the needle thingy at my nails until very pain... =.= pfft... at last.. done after 45 mins... den waited for my cousin for 15 mins.. =X

The total bill was about $85... $_$ she rich sia.. whip out her credit card and paid without even blinking.. x_x fine lor... anyway, we walked around for a while... then I remembered hearing the girls say that MPH got sell part 2,3,4 of my book de series... so I drappged my couz in.. AND I FOUND THE BOOK!!! WHEEEEEEEE!!!! I bought part 2... the rest nex time den buy lah... broke le.. ;_;

Hmm... gonna go read my book now... XD

Cherish your life, god made you for a reason, and you'll always have me beside you =)
- Amber-

~~Thursday, January 26, 2006~~

8:23 PM

i'm looking at the clock and counting down now.. week 12.. aka THE CURSED WEEK, is ALMOST OVER!!! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!! AND IT WASNT AS BAD AS I THOUGHT IT WAS GONNA BE!!! let's recap... XD

- Monday: Marketing test was easier than I thought.. not gonna elaborate ^_^
- Tuesday: Mugging for java.. @_@
- Wednesday: Java test... hmm.. tough.. but not as tough as last sem.. =)
- Thursday (today): Erm.. 1202 proj over!! Hurray! Passed! And I didnt fail my 1213.. which means... BIG HUG TO MY MOUSTACHE!!! GOD BLESS YA! LUV YA! XD
- Tmr (Friday): *sighs* maths... gonna study after posting this up.. and *cough* java database *cough*

Anyway.... Guess who was just 1m away from me today!??!?!

HONG JUN YANG!!! OMG!!!

Erm... excuse my hyper-ness. Anway, the 4 of them left early, since they present finish le. The rest of us stayed back to finish up. After that, went with Janice to submit her Jap thingy... eh... this part my fault... we were going down the lift, someone else was in the lift with us... I pressed 1st floor, and the girl pressed 2nd. Then, and 2nd floor, she went out of the lift, and Janice and Jacinth were about to go out too, but I held back Jacinth and told her we swere supposed to get out at level one, not level two. And so, we went down to level one. Once we got out, we found that we were in a strange place. Instead of seeing the koi pond, we saw a wall.. =X think my dearie was the most scared ba... she immediately turned back to the lift, but the lift already gone liao. Luckily, Janice knew of a way out of that creepy place. She lead us out.. right to the atrium. Thanx Janice! n_n

And... we went to FJ to eat. I was supposed to go home and eat, but called home , and my mom said it was alright =D So I ate in sch... eating, eating.. then my mind started drifting to a three-letter word person. I was staring straight ahead, and wasnt even paying attention to my surroundings. Then dearie suddenly said: I think that's Hong Jun Yang.

Ok, this was the part where I snapped out of my thoughts. Erm.. I SHOULD be the first one to notice Jun Yang, I mean, I was staring at the entrance of FJ the ENTIRE time!!! But... since I was day dreaming, dearie saw him. And me and Janice promptly went hyper.. lol! We were sitting just beside the ban mian stall, and Jun Yang was buying ban mian... -.- Janice managed to take a few pics of him. Think she'll post it up in her blog ba.. go see later.. hehe... anyway, i want ed to take an autograph from him, but dearie said of i do that, she gonna hide her head in a hole in the toilet. -.- *sighs* fine... so we just observe him.. he's so close.. yet so far.. lol... after buying his ban mian, he went to sait with someone at the staff corner... WHICH WAS RIGHT BESIDE THE CLASS GUYS!! =.= haix... the the guys were observing him too... bleah... but looking at the time, late liao.. so we didnt stay longer, went home le.. =)

That's all bah... oh, and PS to JJ: Feel free to msg me.. I'm not ignoring you.. just busy XD

When I was young, I believed that friends are forever, sadly, i dun believe in that anymore these days...
-Amber-

~~Wednesday, January 25, 2006~~

10:41 AM

I'm now posting when i clearly should be practicing my flunking java... but after thinking about some stuff, I honestly cannot looking at senseless codings... big apology to Ms Lo.. oh, and I suppose I owe an apology to java too.. oh well...

Anyway, I'm neither here nor there today... thinking about Ray, I suppose.. (stop reapproaching yourself. I know that's what you're doing now as you're reading this!) He seems like s stranger these days... something is wrong; I know it, and you know it. And something Jun Jie said... what he said? good question... sorry... i promised not to say anything about our converstion... but i am SO CONFUSED! DAMN IT!

Jacinth and Janice asked me a question today. If it were to turn to Jun Jie, who didnt tell me about his problems, instead of Ray, would I be THIS UPSET? I answered.. depends... and they said.. then you may care about Ray more than Jun Jie... and something Jun Jie said on our date triggered me... he said.. from an outsider's point of view, you and Ray seem more like a couple compared to me and you. I was speechless.. (for your info, it takes a LOT to make this girl speechless -.-) You can say shock, stunned, surprised, maybe hurt and anger? I HONESTLY DUNNO!!!

crap it! I'm sick of this! See? That was why i hesitated when it comes to relationships... L-O-V-E.. what a word... i hate it.. with a passion... GRRRRR!!!!

Sorry to those who are reading this post, sorry to Ray, and a BIG apology to Jun Jie...

Why is such a simple word so complicated? What do I really want?
-Amber-

~~Monday, January 23, 2006~~

9:24 PM

At first, i didnt really wanna blog today... but really cant help it lah...

Start from the beginning.. okay.. marketing test... argh! the entire weekend, was busy staring at the stupid marketing book!! phew! it's finally over *breathes a sigh of relief* Should be able to pass... easier than last sem.. and this teacher dun seem to be as strict as last sem de. After that test.. *sighs* 3 and half hour break.. >_<>

Eh... Jun Jie called me at dinner. lol.. to jun jie.. i'm perfectly normal lah.. not sick.. =) dun worry so much.. just at that time i was really very sian... bored to death liao.. so my voice liddat.. plus I ate too much chocolates.. XD

After that, went for lec. Dots, as expected, that boring Roy talked rubbish again, and tried to show off his drawing skills... -.- Halfway through, i gave up listening. Wei! Not really my fault hor... that stupid Hong Jing was sitting behind me, and he keep kicking my chair... ON PURPOSE!!! grrr... then he keep saying the lecturer was talking rubbish, and ask me to entertain him.. =X

fine lor.. so i asked him the "leng xiao hua" wah lan! that stupid Hong Jing!! Ask him to solve the questions, then ming ming is he wrong lor!!! then he wont admit, say i ask stupid questions. Then he used the questions i asked and asked me back in a more stupid way... T_T I really wanna kill him liaox.. ask ppl to entertain him, then still call me you zhi!!! =.=

Hmm.. tz seem very sad today... she wont say why leh... cheer up gal, we'll be there for ya =) Anyway, that lame Hong Jing at least got put to some use. He somehow managed to make tz laugh with his jokes. like "ma lu" (road) is for "ma" (horses) to cross de, not for human... =.= LMAO! still got a lot sia.. i dun wanna put everything here... go ask him tmr, den u'll also feel like killing him.. he make me wanna bao xue guan liao!!! >_<

bleah! That's about it bah.. gonna go to bed now... had only 3 hours of sleep last night thanks to marketing.. -.- zzzz

For Ray:
If you treat me as a friend, stop giving me the silent treatment and tell me what's wrong.
- Amber-

~~Sunday, January 22, 2006~~

5:15 AM

Sorrie... as i have not been updating any post this few weeks... tests, projects, homework, etc are driving me crazy!! hence, became blur-er and blur-er... >.<

As Amber has requested, i had decided to post up some of the "cold aka leng" jokes by angeline, eunice, zuiyi and my bro... hahax... it's really LENG... PLEASE!! put on your jacket when you are ready to read the answers!!... kekeke... enjoy!! =)

-Here are the questions-
1) Number 11th book... guess a cheng2 yu3... [by angeline]
2) Which cartoon character loves to help people when they are in need? Why?[by angeline]
3) What type of Yi1 fu2 aka shirt, no matter how u wear, it will not tear? Why?[by angeline]
4) Who is red bean's child? Why?[by angeline]
5) Which number is bigger than bear's shit? Why?[by angeline]
6a) A piece of grassland... guess 2 chinese words... [by angeline]
6b) Another piece of grassland... guess 4 chinese words... [by angeline]
7) Which cartoon character is cute but scary? Why?[by my bro]
8) Mary's mother have 4 children... they are, xiao3 yi1, xiao3 er4, xiao3 san4 and ?? Who is the 4th child? [by my bro]
9) There is a cup of hot tea... which hand (right or left) whould you use to stir the cup of tea? [by eunice]
10) Why is it that we could only meet Lee Xian Loong at nite? [by eunice]
11) A house is on fire... a person walked into that burning house, making the fire gets even bigger... why is that so? [by zuyi]

You should be---> *thinking in progress* hehehex

Excited to see the answers? They are just below! Continue reading~
1) bu4 ke3 si1 yi4 (also pronouce as book shi2 yi1) shi yi = eleven
2) Doraemon aka Xiao Ting Dang... because doraeon likes to "shen1 chu1 yuan2 shou3"...
3) Tian1 Yi1 aka "Tian" shirt... because "tian1 yi1 wu2 feng4"
4) Nan2 guo3... because "hong2 dou4 sheng1 nan2 guo3"
5) 40... because "shi4 shi2 da4 yu2 xiong2 bian4"
6a) Mei2 Hua1 aka no flower...
6b) Hai2 shi4 mei2 hua1 aka still no flower...
7) Doraemon... it's cute, don't u think so? hahax... it's scary because, it "shen1 shou3 bu4 jian4 wu2 zhi3"
8) The 4th child of course is Mary herself la! if ur ans is xiao si, u're wrong... didn't read the qn carefully ar... hahax...
9) aiyo... why u wanna use ur hand to stir? i will use a "teaspoon"... diao...
10) Because Lee Xian Loong is our Prime Minister aka PM(nite)...
11) Because that person is a "dao3 you2 aka tour guide"

Muhahahahx... so, how mani questions u have guessed correctly? cold rite? hahahahx... Angeline, Eunice, Zuiyi and bro... wah... u all are my leng shi fu... pei fu pei fu... qing shou tu er yi bai~ lolx... hahax... i have became lame too... thks to all my leng shi fu... *smiles*

Anyone has any hot jokes to keep me warm? kekekex
-x- `charissa -x-

~~Saturday, January 21, 2006~~

4:37 PM

lol! okies, okies.. i finally got time to post up the "date" liao... after I got permission from Jun Jie. *ahem* I quote from him, this is what he said : Aiyo, these is private de.. why they wanna noe?

hehe... but since u all wanna noe, okay lor.. i post...

hmm... the orginal plan to ice-skate was cancelled... dots.. not because of u girls lah... it's because I dun wanna go home change... =p Anyway, went to Civil Service Club to bowl. School ended earl, so I reached about 2.45... I went to book a lane first, so when he cpme, we can just start. hehe... JunJie funny sia! Told u dun buy things liao... he look so awkward.. holding the flowers... IN A BOWLING ALLEY!!! but thanx lah.. i love them.. *gives Jun Jie a hug* The flowers were roses... 3 white, 3 purple.. (or issit lavender, lilac? aiya, dunno lah.. light purple liddat) the flowers are in my vase now.. =)

Then we started bowling... eeks! He's a pro!! 3 strikes in a row.. T_T I got 3 strikes.. but seperate de... as expected, his capre 200+, mine only 100+ bleah! at least better than that time I went out with zuyi, kah heng and the girls... maybe cuz that zuyi keep saying he's gonna watch me, and he keep calling me shifu.. >_<>

And let me clarrify first.. alothough i like shopping, dun make me shop under pressure... -.- dots lah! he didnt buy his new year clothes... he was waiting for me to go out with him to buy... wah.. last min sia... and then I girl lor.. dragged to guys shop.. =X hmm... he bought a light blue tee and bermudas in the end... i didnt buy anything... cuz the fitting rooms the queue is enough to scare ppl off, and I was still holding the roses... how to try clothes? -.- hehx...

After that, he walked me to the mrt, i dun wanna let him noe where i live... so i told him not to follow me on the train.. =p and he took the opposite train back home to bukit panjang... i feel so guilty... bugis back to bukit panjang very far leh.. >_<

Hmm.. that's about all ba... ^_^

I cant create a fairytale ending all by myself... no one can...
- Amber -

~~Friday, January 20, 2006~~

11:22 AM

hmm... dun feel like posting leh.. but since someone ask, then I post ba... ^_^

I feel like everything in my life is snowballing now... it started off with a tiny snowball, and keeps getting bigger... i'm using one of Janice's word from her blog... feeling suffocated... like running a marathon that doesnt seem to end..

First Snowball effect: My math
urgh! Because I missed 2 tests thanks to fever, I have to do make-up test now... just had one test today... =.= the tutor came out of 2 questions ON THE SPOT for me to do... what kind of question is THAT?!!??!?! so hard!!! I gave up and told him to give me my second test some other day.. @_@

Second Snowball Effect: Projects
let's see... VB.Net, and java!! VB.Net is still okay.. manageable... but java... >_<>

Third Snowball Effect: Week 12
Week 12 is a cursed week!!! Monday, marketing ICA, Wednesday, java practical test plus hand in DCN project... Thursday, 1202 project... and probably receiving my flunking DCN quiz... Friday, show teacher the database link, math quiz on sampling, and probably my second make-up quiz... bleah!

Last Snowball effect: Him
This could be my fault... I keep dragging off the relationship... and the problem lies with me, not him. The result? Instead of enjoying going out, you feel like going out is a chore... not something u enjoy... I'm not being fair to him, and I know it... dui bu qi... now, going out with him seems like homework.. something I hafta squeeze inside my schedule... but that really isnt supposed to be the case... T_T I'm reeaalllyy sorry....

Urgh! For the up-coming month, there'll be lesser posts... first pirority is to settle my academic work... my apologies...

I'm not leaving you out of my life, I just dun wanna drag you into a life full of whirlwind and craziness...
-Amber-

~~Tuesday, January 17, 2006~~

5:53 PM

Eeks! This morning... woke up late.. then took a shorter route to the mrt station to rush for time... at first i didnt notice it, but it moved! Then i turned to look at what it was.. and almost screamed!! A RATTLE SNAKE!!! wth!! I quickly run, and I heard aunties behind me talking about the snake... one say gonna call dunno what lah, to catch the snake. Anyway, i late liao... no time, so I ran off.

Looked at my watch, left 20 mins.. take mrt comfirm late de, somemore java impt! cannot miss! so i take cabbie. Eeks! that driver crazy de lor! he HORNED at EVERY other driver who got in his way!! then keep cutting ppl's lanes... please lor, even though I late, i want my life de hor! Then he missed the exit to NYP, went ALL THE WAY TO BKE!!! from CTE to BKE... =.= LMAO! by the time i reached sch at last, the meter become $11 liao... but he admit he wrong, so charge me $8. phew!

At sch, found out tz sick... aww.. first jance, then tz... take care hor. =) Then I told the gals I'm giving him a chance... i have no idea why they so happie... -.- At lec, told Vickie I finished reading the book, and 2 chapters on the book about a certain topic that she's curious about. So I'm gonna bring to lend her tmr.. turns out janice wanna read also.. =S I shan't comment on that.. >_<

Hmm... tmr hot DCN test le... jia you wor! And cya on Friday, JunJie ^_^

Cherish every opportunities in life, sometimes, there wont be a second chance...
- Amber -

~~Monday, January 16, 2006~~

3:14 PM

teehee... i talked to him yesterday night... made me think A LOT.. was considering whether to post it up.. but think again.. why not?

HE FINALLY ASKED HER OUT!!! and she said.... YESSSS!!! good job *gives Cuzzie a hug from S'pore* told ya it would work... sure... u never said u were going out on what base.. but.... this is the FIRST STEP! WOOT! rofl! sheesh... nice of ya... i helped u accomplish want you wanted, but you just HAD TO stump me with your questions... =X okies ppl, these are the questions he asked me to ask Jun Jie... which I DID, for your info... (took me a LOT of courage... =.=) try asking the person u like, and see of u get the answer u want...

First Question:
Ask him to list one strength, one weakness, and one thing he likes about you so much.
The answer I received from Jun Jie:
Strength: determination
Weakness: Determination
Why he likes me: I'm always there for him and have never doubted him.

Eeks! I almost wanted to stop questioning him after hearing this answer... he really understood me... =X

Question 2:
What is one thing that I cannot stand?
Answer I received: When ppl pushes/ forces me to do stuff.

I almost fainted. He managed to notice bits and pieces about me from the way I react. I was already looking at the remaining questions and thinking if I should continue...

Question 3:
The place where you would most probably find me if I wanted to be alone and needed to think.
Answer I received: A shopping centre.

I was starting to creep out... he was right in a way... I would start buying lots of stuff... but you would find me at a bookshop, browsing through books...

Question 4:
The best gift a boyfriend could get me.
His Answer: Whatever I have hinted that I wanted

Hehe.. this one was wrong. The best gift was for him to be there when I needed him.

Last Question:
Who do I tend to run to when I need help or advise?
His Answer: Ray, or someone older than me

Okok... all these signs are creepy.... my brother told me he can find these answers on my blog... maybe he can.. but that must have meant that he frequently reads my blog... Urgh!!! Contradicting!! On one hand, you really want him to get the correct answer, on the other hand, u really dun want him to me your Mr Perfect, as you're finding reasons NOT to be with him...

Eeks! Jun Jie, if you're reading this, pplleeaassee dun be offended... gimme time to think it through....

When asked, do you wanna be with someone who understands you, or do you wanna be with someone who loves you, what do you choose?
-Amber-

~~Saturday, January 14, 2006~~

6:36 PM

woot! a loonngg day today... morning.. went out to mai nian huo... aiyo... buy 6 BIG bottles of soft drinks, a bunch of pineapple tarts, love letters, crackers.. blah blah.. spent about $120++ there... me and my brothers complain to my mom... *sighs* carry until hands red le...

hehe.. then my dad gave us $100 to split amongst ourselves.. den my mom say cannot anyhow spend... so they drive us to Bras Plaze Popular, say we must spend at Popular.. how to divide the $100 is up to us. Condition: We're NOT allowed to buy any cds... wah lan.. mind readers sia.. i thinking of cd... >_<>

Hmm... we walked around for a while... then we split up.. I stuck to level 2 and looked at the storybooks. My 2 brothers dunno disappear go where liao... In the end, I spent about $31.55. Hehe.. the money quite evenly split... ^_^ no arguments at all! =)

I bought a novel, a pink fountain pen, a mini 0.4 G-tec, a mine 0.5 pilot. The bulk of the money spent came from the novel. My brothers so guai.. =.= The 16yr old go buy a math assessment bk.. then the other one buy the challenging math problems... >_<>
Overall, a profitable day bah =)

On another note, my last post was emtional... mainly used to clear up the air if there are misunderstandings... and it makes me feel better to finally yi kou qi write everything down.

That's all for now....

Be true to yourself, all the pretense wont help,
- Amber -

~~Friday, January 13, 2006~~

5:38 PM

*sighs, sighs SIGHS*

He left this morning... perhaps that was why I seem gloomy today? Told myself not to cry... it's not as if I'm losing someone or someone died... cry for what? But I still shed a few tears... i dun think anyone noticed it bah... =) He's like a mentor to me... a big brother I never have... I tell him stuff I never told anyone.. not my family, not friends... probably cuz he's older... more mature... I seem to unknowingly run to him when I need someone to talk to... He helped me a LOT.. especially out 3 hour talk last night.. (kana scolded by my mom... lol.. talk to 2am.. =.=) I've finally seen the BIG picture... i'm holding on too tight to my friends.. and not holding tight enough relationship wise. That's why I'm letting someone go... by shifting myself today... and I went to see Jun Jie... even though I resisted.

I'm glad I did these... I feel SSOOO much more relaxed and happy... Ray suggested that I go see Jun Jie, but not reveal myself.. that why I wont mislead him, but I wont hurt him either. Cuz if Jun Jie asks me tonight why I didnt go look for him, I can tell him I DID see him... and was happy he was doing fine... =) Thanx so much, Ray ^_^ And I finally unhooked myself from someone... how that works out... we'll see...

This afternoon, after sch in mrt, talked to Janice about some stuff... Hmm... it seems that everyone seems misunderstood the relationship between me and Ray... lol! I say so many times le... he's like my big brother, my mentor... and we kid around a lot.. like siblings do. n_n And I found out a lot more about our personalitites from Janice...

Hearing Ray's voice give me a sense that everything will be alright... I just need to stay calm and look at things more carefully. Being hysterical wont help, being emotional wont help... think hard... then do what you think is right. He recomfirmed that I made the right decision by not giving in to temptation and to give myself more time before I sink myself into a relationship. And I helped him.. he's finally gonna pluck up the courage to tell the girl that he likes her!!! That was sssooo cool! I actually gave someone COURAGE! hehe... I said to him, tell her how u feel, give her time to think, just like Jun Jie gave me. If she doesnt like you, you can get out of your misery and move on. If she does... WELL DONE! If she asks for time, it make just work out like me and Jun Jie.. perfectly fine =) Start from being friends, then good friends, and maybe things will turn out good and move a step further.

Ray, hope you have a safe flight. Thanx for fufilling my birthday wish, for being a brother to me, for helping me, and please visit soon...

Believe in yourself, and know that you always have me,
-Amber-

~~Thursday, January 12, 2006~~

5:23 PM

Hmm... just a thought.. hehe... since everyone seems to be talking about marriage lately.. particularly.. *coughs* a certain group...

Cuz and I are NOT an item.. lol.. for everyone's info... I dun plan to get into ANY relationship until I'm 21 yrs old.. ^_^ Hmm... is age an issue? distance? work load? time management? hehe.. takes me back to my comm skills lesson... the personality tests... my colour was yellow. The teacher said that yellow ppl are ppl who weighs the pros and cons before deciding. They think of the long term consequences... am I like that? nah... maybe, maybe not. Then I saw my horoscope.. Taurus ppl are determined, and wont change their minds easily... do I change my mind easily? Determination may be a strength... but to me, it seems more like a weakness. I tend to hurt ppl along the way.. with my refusal to switch decisions.

Marriage... *sighs* Commitment...

I am not who I seem to be... I hide beneath that disguise so much... I fool even myself,
- Amber -

~~Wednesday, January 11, 2006~~

8:00 AM

Hmmm... I saw my penpal on Sunday!!!! His name is Ray... wah lan.. he REALLY SURPRISED ME!!! bluff me de.. he say December than coming... I sunday sleeping so shuang.. than about 11+, my hp rang... at first.. i couldnt recognised the voice... than he gave me a clue..say pp... so I named out all my friends... than he jealous.. lol.. say i got so many other penpals.. lol!

I spent monday and Tuesday taking him and his family around... omg!! He's sssooo nice!!!! He paid for EVERYTHING!!!! my lunch, dinner blah blah.. but he going back this Friday le... I'm gonna miss him... omg!!!

LOL!! I feel like we getting married or something... cuz I met his family, and he met mine. Hmm.. his parents are Singaporean.. except they migrate to Candana, BC before he and his siblings were born...

Will post up his pic if I get the chance.. when he send me the pictures when he reach home... ok.. i admit.. quite nerdy... XD

Sssoooo excited!

-Amber-

~~Monday, January 09, 2006~~

5:26 AM

Guess who i met at Shaw Plaza yesterdae!?!?! I met HuiFong!! She's working at "This Fashion"!! It had been a long time since i last met her... Her appearance is as before... her looks and her hairstyle is still the same... Hahax...

She told me that she had worked at This Fashion for one month already!! Wah, i admire her~ The amount of working hours for each day is SUPER long, and she can tahan it!! Hmm... Her results is gonna be release in mid Feb... And she promised to let me know once she got it back... =) Cant wait to hear from her again... Hope that she choose to go to nyp too!! Heex...

___ [[ Glad to see her again ]] *

-x- `charissa -x-

~~Wednesday, January 04, 2006~~

11:25 AM

This is ssssooo booorriiinnng! Ok.. so maybe I shouldnt be posting during java... BUT THE GUYS ARE PLAYING MAPLE!!! so I'm not THAT bad.. XD

Hmm... lately, I feel like I'm drifting apart from some ppl... not gonna say who... but the kind of feeling is not something you like... I'm beginning to notice certain signs of splitting... (Again, not gonna say who) Is it true that nothing lasts forever?

Friendship, Kinship, Relationships... in my world, these 3 things are beginning to fall apart... Are my friends right? Is really having too big a circle of friends bad? Is it true that I'm not giving 100% to a certain group and it isnt fair?

My horoscope for this week says: You cant possibly be at all places at once. Learn to let go of your friends and let them learn on their own. It is impossible to solve every little problem for them.

Hel-lo? But that's what friends are for!!! I cant just leave them like that! Secondary school is really different from Poly life... friends who were once there for you now sides with the other.

And suddenly, I feel all lost and lonely...
-Amber-

~~Tuesday, January 03, 2006~~

5:52 PM

dots... these very days very sian... not much to post... but everyone asking me to update leh... so here I am.. XD

Holidays.. went out with my class gals to Kbox... dots... my throat still not okay.. so I didnt sing much... the gals voice too nice liao.. sing until I fall asleep.. XD heehee.. pai seh ar...

Hmm... first day of school.. the double J very high sia... why the both of u have such weird dreams de??!!!?!? x_x hehe.. looking forward to the long weekend... (Sat to Tues)

And at last... things are finally seeming to settle down... emotionally, at least. A big shout out to the guys from pp! Thanx so much for being there... you guys rock! (The usual 6 of you guys and my 5 very good gal friends... ^_^ )

Be happy and safe this New Year,
-Amber-
(*or Arielle* rofl!)

~~Sunday, January 01, 2006~~

4:28 AM

Today is the last dae of 2005!! After 12am tonite, it will be another new year, 2006!!... Lots of memories for the year 2005 (whether it's gd or bad)... 2006, a new start for a brand new year... In this new year, i hope that everything will be a smooth sailing one for everyone out there~ Take care frenz...

Oh ya, here's one of my christmas present pic (hmm... her name is "Xiao Qi"... isn't she cute? haha -.-;) Thks again frenz, for the christmas presents...

-x- `charIssa -x-